and i need no tagboards no more...

haha...

welcome weijie, back to what you should feel about yourself...

bad.

lols...

sian...

加油~! (JJLin, Feat. Mc HotDog)

最近妳好嗎
少了一點微笑
說的話有點少
最近我也不好
全世界都在逆轉
人開始反向思考

發現妳愛的人到處跑
昨晚剛升職今天被炒
莫名其妙 誰會知道
是不是上天開的玩笑
地震時妳想和誰擁抱
什麼是生命中的美好
輕易放掉 卻不知道
幸福就在下一個轉角

說一聲加油一切更美好
所有的悲傷請往邊靠
曾經流過的淚
濕了傷口就讓
陽光曬乾而褪
這一種加油人人都需要
手牽手我們一起賽跑
說好不見不散
每分每秒守候妳到老

The beat goes on 時間它一直走
就像是Life goes on 這過程或許痛

不管順流或逆流妳總必抬起頭
讓我們一起走走過艱難和困惑

關關是難關但我們關關過
雨後天晴的陽光在天空閃閃
所出現的彩虹忽然間我們才懂
如果這是一場馬拉松那我們一起加油

this year's christmas is spent with my mother and sister... (my father stays home all day... zzz... )we went out both ytd and today... my mother spent quite a bomb on shopping for herself and my sister... today, she also spent on me... the most expensive part was spending $70 for one tshirt... and i bought two... -.-

ytd went to bugis... in the arcade, i caught a soft toy from the arcade machine for my sister..!! haha.. that was after many tries.. so the soft toy cost about... $12? haha.. it is much more fulfilling than buying a soft toy off the rack.. xD then i got addicted.. wanna get one more for my sister.. but i failed... i spent another $11 but nvr get anything... that $11 was tried on several machines.. (i should have stayed on one and kept on trying... haha..)

watched alvin and the chipmunks 2~ not v nice... came out of the cinema wondering what is the show about... not much songs... not much plot... the songs also not say v nice... but some parts quite touching.. i like how the chipmunks always stay together as brothers... "there is no I in a team.." but that alvin... always like to solo and show off.. lol... theodore is always cute.. haha.. simon is mature enough to handle difficult situations... yea.. the chipmunk brothers rock... that is one touching part...

today... went to 313@somerset then went on to orchard central... then went on to orchard ion... bought many many stuff... including me buying a bagpack for my sister as her xmas present.. expensive...! but well... haha... my sister then made me try on different shirts and pants in a shop, and finally i got one long sleeved shirt and a shorts.. well, that's for chinese new year.. haha...

ate alot today also... first was at somerset 313, ate the foodcourt there.. the economical rice there is nice!! (not very economical though...) haha... $4.70 for a plate of 2 meat and 1 veg... but the serving size is quite small.. dessert is like... ice kachang $3.. crazy... i ate yam paste instead.. also $3 -.- this was supposed to be dinner, at about 5pm...

then we ate again! at orchard ion foodcourt.. some bak kut teh... haha.. at about 8pm... lol..

tml im going to visit my grandma house... like, so long nvr go alrdy... haha... and on monday, it will be back to working hard for sojourn...

countdown to new year... 6 days :)

watched sherlock holmes today tgt with yxiang n liangwei...

nice movie.. i like the plot... about dark magic.. then sherlock holmes actually solved the case, showing that there is no such thing as the dark arts, everything is just clever science at work... all loose ends were tied up at the end of the movie.. all the 'magic' were uncovered as tricks and shown how issit done...

however the character sherlock holmes in the movie v different from my impression of him.. he is not seh.. haha.. even dr. watson is more seh than him in the movie... but sherlock holmes had good fighting skills in the movie.. which is also cool...

xmas is here! merry xmas~

i hav nothing to look forward to during xmas...

nxt movie i gonna watch: alvin and the chipmunks 2, yay..

haha... i've been crying recently...

when i watch 2012, i was touched and sad at certain moments and i cried...
when i read "have a little faith", i was also sad and moved to tears...
when i watch AVATAR, i also cried at some parts of the movie...

and sometimes you wonder how things change...

unpredictable.. and when you try to think back, you couldnt find the reason why... i have accepted the change... but i still dno what caused it... but i just react to it anyway... and i go along... i also decided that it is not my fault, so i took myself out of the picture of being blamed...

i feel better.

but i can still fall back into negativity, i realise...

i need to have this image in my mind that can help me keep positive and happy when i know that im going to feel bad again... it is very easy to feel bad, but difficult to get out of it.. people feel bad easily, and they stay there... either unwilling to get rid of the feelings, or unable to...

it's the christmas season...

i've prepared 17 xmas cards.. haha.. but i only wrote and sent out 3 so far... 14 more to go..! hope i can make it in time for xmas... wanted to send out more cards...

but alrdy got chided for buying so many cards... lol...

:)

i cried when i read the last few pages of mitch albom's "have a little faith"...

that book touched me alot...

and it came to me just in time...

just in time to make me feel how lucky i am...

just in time to make me appreciate the people around me...

just in time to make me feel positive abt my life...

tht book rocked...

although it talks alot about religion, but it is not about religions.. it is about having this "faith".. and no matter what religion you are, or perhaps, even a free-thinker... everyone should have faith...

something to hold on to.. something that keeps you moving on...

have a little faith...

:)

haha.. getting back on track.. both ways...

im going to put running into my daily life.. aim to run at least 3 times a day, minimum a 30min non-stop run... lets see how long can i keep that up... if i can keep that up, i believe at the end of nxt year im ready to run a marathon... lol...

just before i go to bed.. (v sleepy now..) some thoughts i wanna write here...

have been reading mitch albom's 'have a little faith'... like his previous books: tuesdays with morrie and for one more day, it really made me feel very warm, and touched... im nearing to the end of the book alrdy... and i enjoyed reading it alot.. it makes me once again feel me.. hah.. like, being contented and happy with what i have...

also, i hav to understand that certain things which happen around me cannot be controlled by me... and it may not even be linked to what i did... (e.g. event A happened, then event B happened after event A... but it doesnt mean event B happened becuz of event A... both events could be totally not related...)

humans have tendencies to draw links to things even when they are quite obviously different... we tend to think more negatively and we like to put blame on ourselves... but sometimes, really, things that happen are not related, and its not your fault.. its like no matter what it still happens...

so, im not going to put the blame on me anymore... since its alrdy like that... i will not think its my fault.. cuz after thinking through, and after hearing frm kang, lol... im not the only one that felt the change? since you chose it that way... then i have nth to do or to say... i dont feel bad anymore.. but i just feel it is a waste.. a pity... haiz...

for another matter, i feel that im playing the bad guy although i keep thinking that im being good acting in that manner.. but actually it does more harm to both of us than good... and im not doing what im saying.. although i claimed to say that we can go on fine, but the truth is that i created a barrier much quicker than you did... i just changed my whole attitude and the way i treat you... this i realised also aft friends tell me...

finally... thanks for all who has always been there...

for now, i want to organise an exco 0708 outing when the BSP people are back.. i nid to rant with you guys... haha... and yea, to celebrate a birthday among us... :)

ytd's convo with kang and siswo... was much appreciated... today's run with terence... wasnt enough, haha...

how long a break do i need? (in fact, there is no time for a break)

today im alrdy greeted by the stuff which band requires me to do... although this week is the junior high's band camp, senior high still required to come back to practice for sojourn... also to plan some games when our friends frm yck band come and visit us... then there is voting for the new jh band committee... and stuffz...

i read an email, and my breaths become shorter and shallower.. (angry, agitated, i guess?) think back abt what i said 9 months ago... regretted... but what to do...

people change, friends change, relations change... what to do..?





i need a break from all these... i need new energy... i need the optimism...

effff....

left house early at 830am to meet yixiang at his house at 930am to go NYP tgt... he was sleeping when i reach his house.. his mother woke him up, and i watched abit of pokemon which yiwei turned on to watch.. hah...

went to NYP, packed up our stuff... and yixiang went to help NJC team to animate.. he stand-in for one of the members, jeremy.. other teammates: chun wai and junhao were sick.. viona is the only one surviving.. hence yixiang's help was realy needed.. hence in the end we stayed till very late... when i leave at 11.20pm, yixiang was still in NYP in their animation...

that's the end of NEmation... i dont wanna go back to reality though... haiz...

busy days ahead... band and council, lots of catching up to do... lots of energy to lose from my alrdy half-full battery... zz..

this is utterly stupid cuz i cnt copy and paste what i typed ytd into this space, and im typing out again... making me feeling worse.

this is stupid but my father did it again... to stop me from using the computer, he actually hid the internet modem... foolish, stupid, childish...

when you read this im actually typing at 1.49am, 12th december, saturday...

Nemation came to an end just today (Friday)... yellow-earthworms managed to finish up everything... yixiang n i left later than yeling n yilin... we actually re-did their scenes which they did cuz of the lighting failure... so when they left, two of us stayed on and finished all 5 small scenes and arranged the cyber files on the computer properly, before leaving NYP at 12am plus... yixiang swaveboarded home.. i took a cab home... haiz...

in the cab the taxi driver talked to me about eating sardine is good for theb rain n how his children are doing well in their lives.. lol.. im tried but cnt sleep cuz nid to talk to him.. haha.. oops.. reached home, im $10 short of money, taxi dont accept nets, called home for help...

entered house, mother questions me... like irritated, or concerned? i dont know... then i told her that i need to leave house early tml again.. she is irritated... my father? shout shout shout again.. talk about how enthusiastic i am for such useless matters and yet not for studies... wtf, i ignoreed and went to shower...

im no longer angry... i got used to it... i have the father-you-are-better-off-not-talking-to-me syndrome.. haha.. the words he says to me are limited in content and vocab: did you read your newspapers? you got do homework? got homework anot? rmr to do your homework arh... dont watch online videos... you watch how long alrdy? stop watching! go n sleep! stop playing on the computer! go read books! go study! you should read more economic books... do you know A-level is very impt... you must do well for A-levels... do well and show daddy... (so on and so forth... from the above monologues you see, can figure out how much stuff he has to say to me..)

to adults: stop asking me to stand in the shoes of my father and think; yes i know A-levels are impt and thankyou very much for your 'concern'... yes, maybe im a computer addict, cnt stop playing... (is that really so? i watch less than 10mins of vid and my father came in and assumed i watched everyday and for hours...) where does the problem really lie?

communication... there is nth between me and my father that links... sorry to say, but i prefer my friends' company rather to my family, esp my father... and for this, i will continue to leave house early, reach home late.. even nxt year... i will study in school, rather than going home.. you can continue to assume im not doing work, i dont worry for A-levels, and scold, cuz, i will not respond to what you have to say.. what can you do? scold? i know what im doing, im doing well, i dont need your affirmation no more...

you never recognised improvement, you only want to see excellence.. till now, you never recognised my improvement in promos.. i dont know what plans you have for me, and i dont care. i dont want to lead what you have for me, i will carve my own future with whatever i can...

i dont wanna worry my parents, but at the same time i dont wanna give in to all the nonsense, shoutings, scoldings... you dont know what im doing neither did u try to know what and how im doing...

i enjoy friday dinners with my mother.. if i have anything, i would update and tell my mother abt it.. she will listen... she will give opinions and ask, and she will respond with her own experiences... its like how she follows korean/taiwan/hongkong dramas along with my sister.. im better able to connect eith my mother.. i have nothing to say to my father.

dont try to talk me round... esp teachers... i cnt trust adults on this no more...

friends if you wanna help me, just hear me rant.. haha.. and perhaps, tell me what i should do?

daddy, mind your own business and i will mind mine...

im going to wake up ealier to leave house, so that i dont hafta face you later in the day, goodnights.

2.11am, saturday, 12th December

hah..

almost blow up in front of my teammates at nyp today...

was very agitated.. with alot of anger...

wentto toilet to cool down...

why should i work so hard when my team members hav no sense of urgency? when being asked what im doing now, i just say that im waiting for you guys to get rdy lor... and i played my hp, went to lie down...

things turned out well later... we were back on task and progressing well...

(:

im actually playing fishville on facebook, and am hooked on it becuz i dont want my fishes to die... zz..! all cuz yixiang go n create a tank for me..!! and now, yellow-earthworms are all playing it.. lol...

ytd's bad mood was brought over till this morning.. what was worse is that i slept only for a few hours.. and then in the bust i couldnt really sleep cuz there isnt a good backing for me to lie on.. haha.. so im quite irritated... met up with yeling n yixiang at the bus terminal, but i didnt talk much.. really tired and didnt wanna talk, nor smile...

almost wanted to declare to my teammates: "hey, today my mood isnt very good.. so if i shout at you guys or sth pls forgive me.. ha" lucky i didnt.. cuz if i did, it is blatantly telling them to leave me alone if not be prepared to get it frm me.. n that wasnt friendly... yea, wasnt feeling friendly this morning...

slowly, the mood changed.. but still im feeling dull...

tml is the 2nd last day of NEmation.. all the best to all teams.. esp us, yellow-earthworms.. jiayou jiayou man.. today n ytd wasnt productive.. we spent 2 days to get one scene done... please... tml... let's get work done...

rarh..

music is my life!

^^.smile.always.``
sadisticatedz
a-lone
have fun~
my life in dhs...
EXCO, IA, Band...
2Huga and 4Falala...
Volleyball, MS, 5c21~!




PROFILE

limweijie
4th march
height: not tall

tampines primary school
1.5/2.2/3.1/4.1/5.9/6.9

dunman high school
1/2Huga,3Ffervescence/4Falala
dhssb; dhssc
clarinets; internal affairs

dunman high school (senior high)
fiveCtwentyone; econs rep
DRAKONIAN!
dhsshsb; vball; musicsociety; council
freelance publications photographer? haha!

limweijie@hotmail.com

and i was thinking...
photos on flickr
brisbane photos on flickr
friendster


HISTORY

TPS Prefectorial Board `04
.Vice-Head Prefect

DHSSC Comm. and Pub. `06
DHSSC Orientation~
DHS Voyage `06 (Where the journey begins)
.Flag and Identities IC

DHSSC Level Council (Year 1 n 2) `07
DHSSC Orientation~
DHShine `07 (Where stars are born)
.Event In-Charge
DHSSC Youth Day Carnival `07
.Logistics
TPS Alumni `07
.Project Coordinator

DHSSB Committee `08
.Quarter Master
DHSSB Clarinets~!! `08
.Section Leader
DHSSC Internal Affairs `08!!
.Head of Dept
DHSSC Orientation~
DHS Olympics `08 (Together we run the race)
.Mentor
I *Heart* Music Committee `08
DHSSC Youth Day Games `08
.Mentor
Yamaha Electone Festival `08
.D4 (group ensemble) BASS!!
Movie Marathon 2008
.Food In-Charge

Year4 DHSchase `09
.Facilitator (Group 4H2)
Year3 DHSxpedition `09
.Facilitator (Group 3E2)
DHS Senior High `09
.DRAKONIAN!
DHSSH Student Council
.Student Welfare HOD!
DHS Music Society! `09
.the force behind... haha!
DHS Volleyball~!! `09
.Member
DHS SHSB Clarinets `09
.Member
Sembawang Wind Orchestra
.Clarinet player
TAND CIP Proj `09
.Event Manager


READING LIST

books i feel worth reading
"The Introvert Advantage,
How to Thrive in an Extrovert World"
-- Marti Olsen Laney, Psy. D.

"The Tipping Point"
How Little Things Can Make a Big Difference
-- Malcolm Gladwell

"Blind Spots"
Why Smart People Do Dumb Things
-- Madeleine L. Van Hecke, PhD

"Blink"
The Power of Thinking Without Thinking
-- Malcolm Gladwell

"The EQ Edge"
Emotional Intelligence and Your Success
-- Steven J. Stein, Ph.D.
-- Howard E. Book, M.D.

"Psychology"
Teach Yourself
-- Dr Nicky Hayes

"Killer's Wedge"
An 87th Precinct Novel
-- Ed McBain

"Fiddlers"
An 87th Precinct Novel
-- Ed McBain

FIRST TIMES

210608 entered YEF finals
040708 done a "freeze"
050708 rode a swaveboard
050708 night biked~!
060708 last 24hrs w/o sleep
070708 a call lasting 2:12:27 (with kang)till 0031hrs
130708 walked frm harborfront to buona vista in 3hr 30mins
130708 a call lasting 1:18:32 (with kang)till 0153hrs
140708 a call lasting 1:11:30 (with loy)till 0023hrs
250708 reached home at 4am in the morning aft LA film
030908 read a book 330pages within a day
040908 completed 2 blogposts on the book, totalling 5263words..!
100908 school exploration at mt sinai campus - LT 1
120908 school exploration at mt sinai campus - underground tunnel
071008 mass convo on handphone with 5 participants - 1hr 20mins
191008 first dragonboating experience
191008 first successful job application~!
221008 5hour songwriting (with english lyrics) finished at 0130!
051108 first day at work... -.- 4.30pm to 11pm...
251108 picked my FIRST LOCK in school LT 2!! (tgt with sxiangs)
161208 longest video project yet COMPLETED (36 mins 57s)
161208 climbed into the LOCKED gym through a broken window! EXTREME (tgt with sxiangs)
120109 3 bowls of dessert as dinner! (with yixiang)
250109 a call lasting 0:43:31 (with yx) till 2230hrs
010209 phone mass convo with WYLL for 2hrs 15mins 40s!
230409 ate 6 doughnuts in a row (tgt with jiezhi!)
230509 attended a 21st birthday party
230509 drank Carlsberg :)
280509 overnight in council room (with yx) hiding from guards.. hah!
080609 cycled about 20km 36km frm ECP to Changi in 2hours! (with jxiong)
110609 visited boonlay, pioneer, jookoon mrt stations... (with IA 0708)
040709 walked from tampines to eunos MRT stn (with ter and liangwei)
040709 played guitar hero at mountbatten CC, third prize
040709 played LAN since 5 years ago... (Primary 6)
160709 an OUTGOING call to yixiang which lasted 2hrs 58mins till 3am!
160709 a call with rachel lasting 1hour till 1130pm
100809 i held her hand
140809 conference with nic, linda, wx, rache till 1am+, 2h 25mins!
041009 a call with tygh lasting 42mins?? lol


LIST OF MY WISHES/TO DO LIST

settle my year 5 class and combi
hopes: 5C21, Ma Ph Ec MEP
got: 5C21, Ma Ph Ec Geog (no regrets!)
get my basics right for volleyball
not be afraid to roll, anytime anywhere
compose songs at my leisure time
find the good voice in me to sing
pick up the guitar again to sing and play
finish up my 1000 piece puzzle
chance to learn playing the drumset
being able to learn the alto saxaphone
get into house committee in year 5?
maybe not.. i dont know...
lolol, i got into SW HOD.. what have i got myself into.. hah
music society to be a merit CCA
great aspiration, not enough dedication..
grow another 10cm within two years (in 2010)
play a clarinet solo with band accompaniment in 2010
music vocal instrumental group - sing n perform!
get back into drawing my little character
draw a series of it..!
hone my skills for sing and play on a keyboard
compose a little song that expresses myself


LIST OF 21 THINGS BEFORE I TURN 21

01
02 a scholarship
03 entry to desired university
04 getting my driving licence
05 bagpack tour in Europe/Egypt/India
06 write a song for my good friends (and sing it for them!)
07 explore every single spot there is in Singapore (on foot!)
08 fulfill a child's wish in Make-A-Wish Foundation (Adopt-A-Wish!)
09 participate in a marathon
10
11
12
13
14
15
16
17 participate in NDP performance.. wow..
18 I want a SLR CAM!!
19 save up to 5k in my current bank account
20 getting out of NS safely
21 a job that i will enjoy doing


ENJOYS

music~!
tea: iced/lemon/green
iced green tea latte~!
doing random things...
THINKING... (hmm...)
running... (away from reality?)
reading :)


HATES

the COLD
the loneliness
the dark


BELIEVES

no one should be left out
do what i say, say what i do
providing a listening ear
hold on to responsiblity
to know people personally and not generally
opening your heart is the key to understanding people


HOPES

to make a difference
to create my own music
to be confident and inspire others
to let my voice be heard...


WANTS

a cap~
a jacket..!
camera pouch
acoustic guitar
clarinet of my own
i dont want alr...
creative zen player
i got a ipod now!
electone stagea
i stopped learning electone, what use now?
camera of my own
new camera... (lost mine..)
will be careful this time...
own a laptop (pref MACbook)
nope... not macbook.. haha..
another rubix cube
to spearhead again a project/event
cnt believe i put this under my hopes.. now i dread it..

Designer : Koo kies

Basecodes are from: YLI NG;D

Texture for image and background pattern in courtesy of AeTheReality.